The Divine Within
It was early evening, I was at the local garden that I often go to as it is a nice space to sit and be still, or read a book, or just contemplate. This particular evening a couple came and sat on the adjacent seat, about twenty foot away. He looked like he was in his thirties, she looked as if she was late twenties. I couldn’t help but overhear their conversation.
As I sat there I could hear her despair, I could feel how overwhelmed she was feeling. She started to express her feelings and that she works for little money and it all goes on the partner, their son and the partners gambling and that she would like something for her, for once, just a bit of money to spend on herself instead of everyone else and the bills. I listened as she verbally bled out her heart, as she complained to her partner saying that he never helps her, yet he helps other people, and how he has the money spent before she even gets it; she went on to say how he doesn’t even change his clothes or take a shower unless she tells him to.
It all became too much for her and she burst into tears, quietly sobbing as he sat there drinking his beer. He eventually edged closer to offer some comfort but it didn’t help much, and to top it off, through her tears, she proclaimed that it is her birthday in a couple of days and that she is working because they don’t have the money to do anything for her.
I felt her pain, I know what it is like to feel overwhelmed with life, to feel like you are trapped in a life that you seemingly cannot change, and I am sure many people have felt like that at some stage in their life, but her pain was so raw; I felt deeply for her and wanted to help.
Usually, I would talk to The Divine and request help for her, I would ask for guidance or support for her, but this time I felt I needed to give her some money. I asked The Divine to keep them there whilst I packed up my things and went to the ATM across the road to take out some money. I took out what I felt to give her, even though I knew it was going to leave me short, but it didn’t matter, my faith is in The Divine.
I approached them, and he looked suspiciously at me, I looked her straight in the eyes and said: “I’m sorry, I heard part of your conversation and that it is your birthday soon, this is for you, for your birthday, treat yourself to something.” She stared at the money that was still in my hand, but I could see relief already showing in her face, she asked me if I was sure, and I told her I was, she took the money, and her face lit up. I walked away, my job was done, it would give her some breathing space, and what she does with the money is her business not mine.
I went home and burst into tears because I physically felt the overwhelming despair that she was carrying, I just wanted to give her a break, to lift the burden, just for awhile.
I started to ask The Divine to bless her, but I was interrupted, and a voice said. “When you ask me to help, you ask the The Divine that you experience outside of yourself, when you yourself do the very thing that you ask me to do, you connect with The Divine aspect that is within you, you have already answered your prayer, your request. You have acted from The Divine within you. It is the same source, we are one, you are part of Divine Consciousness, part of me.”
With that, I was able to take solace, I permitted the remainder of the tears to be released because sometimes, I know that my tears are the sharing of someone else’s grief, and by letting them go, I am taking and releasing some of their grief.
To finish, I just want to say that I encourage you all to be the difference you want to see in the world, and to build a strong relationship with The Divine. We are all called to a spiritual life, we are all part of that same Divine Consciousness, I’m no more special than you, I just want to be the best version of me, and help whenever I feel called to.
